Month: August 2012
It was at those moments that I think I saw a particular gentleness break through his strict exterior. But it vanished almost instantly and I doubted it later. He came near me and said in a low monotone “I still think there is faith inside you, though the hope has altogether taken flight. Follow the crowd and you will be blessed, but beware the grandeur of this place and don’t raise your sight too high.”
At his words, I cast a fleeting look towards the crowd of people moving with some hard motivation in mind and then as I look back, he has vanished from my vision. I was left at this unknown place with no knowledge of where I was meant to be, but for the first time in life, I felt that my instincts were guiding me to move with the crowd of people towards the unknown destination. As soon as I joined the throng of people, instantly I felt energized as well. There was some sort of familiarity and it seemed some unbeknownst energy had penetrated my body. My sulkiness was now giving way to utter curiosity and so I increased my momentum. I don’t know for how long a tread along a path completely unknown to me and yet so familiar to my body that it moved effortlessly now. I was in a state of trance and thus the next moment the sight I saw made me astonished. Before me Lo and behold! Was in all its glory Holy KHANA KAABA! For a long time, the time lost its essence to me and I stared ahead, with numb mind and thoughts. I struggled inside my heart, to feel something but nothing came back to me in those moments. I don’t know what my expression might have been because a lady came quiet closer to me and handed me two dates and a glass of water and asked me if I was fine. On returning her gaze and questions with a blank expression, she probably lost interest and moved ahead.
It was then I heard his voice, “Countless night I have seen you, crying yourself to a state of utter oblivion without realizing, your tears are meant only to be shed in his ways, because only then they would be treasured. You have been concerned about how vulnerable you are, how susceptible to the callous attitude of others you can become, but with HIM, it goes on a completely different level, because HIS love gives strength that survives all. Your passion, if spend in his way will find might, which you see wavering most days.” It was then I turned towards him with complete ignorance and in his eyes I saw a reflection of my face covered with tears that I had not come announced and in awareness.
He smiled towards me and nodded in acknowledgement, and it was then a whimper escaped my throat. “All hope spring eternal here, so ask what you know naught of”.
I closed my eyes then, and when eternally later I opened them, I was in my room. Quickly, I moved towards the mirror, and looked at it with uncertainty but there was nothing there to feign as if something unusual has happened. Only when I raised my hand, did I realize that the dates were still in my hand. And it was then I saw the lines of Dumbledore which he has said to harry: “Of course it is happening inside your head, harry, but why on Earth should that mean that it is not real?”
A father wrote this for his daughter:
eliza is the most brightest of the color in my life,how could i not but put her high and prominant on my canvas,
she is the most shining jewel of my crown,how can i not but polish her and keep her unscratched.
she is like the rainbow in my life, how could i not but make it rain again and again to make her bright and whole.
she is like a warm,deep enveloping pleasure which wrap itself around me to make me whole.
I see in her a piece,a broken remnant of my soul,how could i not but appreciate the beauty of my soul which has disentangled itself from me and now resides with her.
Perchance in her I see something which time snatched from me and instead God supplied me that moment back,with an exceeding esctacy, the value of that moment only i know…
“And why should I answer that”, the mirror asked me with a look of sheer annoyance which comes with someone who knows he is in a position to negotiate unscrupulously.
“To humor me for once” I said with a very nonchalant tone of voice, but with an anxious attitude of an eager child.
I guess the mirror recognized the uncertainty in my voice because it eyed me suspiciously and then in a very subtle tone, like a secret agent, it said “what’s in it for me?”
I smirked and then said “AHA! Someone is coming to conciliation”.
The mirror looked at me with a condescending look and then rolled its eyes in a pompous fashion before it moved it hands towards me and said in an overly dramatic look “join the club”.
It was at that moment that full force of my actions came into my full focus. I was lifted from the face of the earth and lifted into a strong gust of wind like a rag doll and then … well never mind, nothing of that sort happened. Yes I am very privy to lying so excuse my power of deception for that.
As I was transported into a new world, the first sensation was of pure heat and I felt if the sun would melt me into vapors. It was just then that I felt a presence beside me. The aura was that of utter confidence and before I could look around I heard him say “so?”
I felt exceptionally angry and turned around to cast a very seething look at him but I got all taken aback. Behind me stood a very tall, handsome man whose features were very hard to miss and as he saw me look at him all wide-eyes, a bemused and knowing expression came upon his face. I felt very displeased as this expression of ridiculous adulation on my behalf, but couldn’t look away without a streak of blush growing on my face.
I guess he realized my annoyance and thus stopped with a smile and said “savvy”.
To conceal my weakness, I just asked “and where have you brought me now?” “My, my being very impatient today, are we?”
I just ignored him then and started observing my surroundings. It seemed I was in a dark alley of some kind and constantly I saw people quickly rushing off towards a certain direction with a very preoccupied look. The people I saw, belonged to a variety of age groups, but it seemed as if certain energy possessed them in those moments. I became exceedingly perplexed because it was almost impossible to understand where I stood on the face of earth.
I thus looked back at him with a blank face and he must have recognized it because he said “any guesses as to where we might be?” I looked with uncertainty and then said “hell’s kitchen” with as much disdain as my tongue could possibly fathom.
He laughed then with a particularly soft style, which was even more attractive and then said “ever the pessimist” and looked away with a thoughtful expression towards the group of people walking towards the particular direction. He looked extremely doubtful at those moments and then turned towards me.
Her eyes are crystal clear
But there is an unknown fear in them,
Her words are deep and beautiful
But there is an unknown terror in them
A tremble in her voice shows
She is facing uncountable foes
She lacks the confidence everyone has
She looks quiet depressed n sad
She smiles but her eyes cry
She has an agony in them but is shy
She never tells what her heart behold
But when I ask she turns quiet cold
Her smile vanishes, she stare at me
And then ran fast past me.
I want to say oh dear stranger
Don’t you know about your secret anger?
Your face is your emotion’s index
And it never is quiet relax
Why don’t you make me your ally?
Why don’t on me do you rely?
But never did she listen to me
Oh my! Why did she did that to me
I waited days, months and years
But never did I hear
Again that beautiful soothing voice
Those beady eyes which seem so nice
I wanted to give her special care
And wanted to end her tears
Before they fell in despair
I wanted to end them, then and there
But never again I saw those eyes
Those beady eyes which seem so nice